Friday, October 31, 2008
There aint nothing much to do,
especially in singapore. I have been
spending the past few months wondering
where to go and what to do to spend my time,
but it always end up to nothing.
That's because singapore sucks, and without
cash, you cant do almost anything for leisure.
Why isnt this world coming to an end yet??
I have really waited a very long time for it.
Someone give me a bottle of sleeping pills now..
please..
Labels: had enough of this stupid world..
(6:14 PM)
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
You were taken from us so suddenly
This I'll never understand
How I wish to see your face, or touch your little hand
I'll never know the reason why God took you in this way
I can only hope to see you where you are someday
If I could have been there that night,
I'd do all that I could to save you and protect you.
But God had other plans and wanted only you
I know that you are with me, all the time, in fact
But I can't help feeling how desparately I want you back
If you ever want to see me, or reach out in some way
Always remember, Rochelle, I'm just a thought away
Labels: Missing you soo much..
(11:21 PM)
Monday, October 27, 2008
I would like to thank my love,
though she's a bit jealous that I
gave all my concern and time that
few days to my beloved Rochelle..
I'm glad she understands at last
and didnt complain.
Thank you love!
=)
But i think she went a bit crazy cause
she started believing that pop corn
can actually be drank.. from a straw somemore.
zzzzz
though she's a bit jealous that I
gave all my concern and time that
few days to my beloved Rochelle..
I'm glad she understands at last
and didnt complain.
Thank you love!
=)
But i think she went a bit crazy cause
she started believing that pop corn
can actually be drank.. from a straw somemore.
zzzzz
Labels: loving you too..
(10:16 PM)
I really hate going to mandai.. Although it's partly
because of Army's field camps, the main reason
is because we go there to see our loved ones
for the last time. If i could, i really like to keep
a part of Rochelle's ashes in a small, cute and nice
bottle... Just the way she was when she was around
with us. But i know that's impossible.. We can all only
keep her in our hearts.
It's been 2 days after Rochelle has been cremated.
We didnt get to keep her long enough because there
wasnt a proper wake for her, u know.. like those 3-5
days wake adults that passed away always had..
The adults in my big family decided not to have it
because the mother couldnt take it, and they want
to shorten her pain as soon as possible.
Spend almost the whole day of saturday settling
her journey, sending her off with what we all could,
with all our tearful hearts. That's the only last thing
we can do for her, and i really did all i could.
Rochelle's such a wonderful name, for this beloved
wonderful little girl.. We love you.
Somehow, a reporter managed to get hold of my blog,
and read about my previous post on Rochelle. I
dunno how they got it, but they posted almost
everything i wrote on Saturday's Chinese newspaper.
I was shocked too when i read it, but well... It was
all for our lovely little girl. Except that my name was
because of Army's field camps, the main reason
is because we go there to see our loved ones
for the last time. If i could, i really like to keep
a part of Rochelle's ashes in a small, cute and nice
bottle... Just the way she was when she was around
with us. But i know that's impossible.. We can all only
keep her in our hearts.
It's been 2 days after Rochelle has been cremated.
We didnt get to keep her long enough because there
wasnt a proper wake for her, u know.. like those 3-5
days wake adults that passed away always had..
The adults in my big family decided not to have it
because the mother couldnt take it, and they want
to shorten her pain as soon as possible.
Spend almost the whole day of saturday settling
her journey, sending her off with what we all could,
with all our tearful hearts. That's the only last thing
we can do for her, and i really did all i could.
Rochelle's such a wonderful name, for this beloved
wonderful little girl.. We love you.
Somehow, a reporter managed to get hold of my blog,
and read about my previous post on Rochelle. I
dunno how they got it, but they posted almost
everything i wrote on Saturday's Chinese newspaper.
I was shocked too when i read it, but well... It was
all for our lovely little girl. Except that my name was
wrote wrong.. It's Ah BaO (Leopard). They wrote Ah BaO
as in some sort of jewellry.. zzz Knowing that so many
people has cared and cried so much for her, loving
her all the while.. I believe she can leave in peace now.
people has cared and cried so much for her, loving
her all the while.. I believe she can leave in peace now.
Goodbye Rochelle.. we love you.
Labels: Nothing can replace you...
(9:56 PM)
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Everything was settled today. Burning of
paper money and house, prayers,
looking at her cold lifeless body for the
last time..
Even by just typing this blog, my heart
is already in a unstable state. I've cried
a lot for her yesterday and today, but I
still felt that I've not done enough for her.
I didnt spend time with her more...
Why? Why does such a good girl has to
leave us at such a young age.. Not only
is the government in this stupid world
unfair, even Life and its creator is unfair.
Go and take the lives of all those fucking
criminals and bad people outside...
But Why claim the little life of such a poor
little girl?? I really rather give up my life
for her... my useless life, being a useless
person for 23 years..
Cant type anymore.. Want to know more,
Please read Today's Chinese newspaper,
WAN BAO... Headline, and pg 3.. Thanks.
Labels: Missing you always Rochelle...
(12:35 AM)
Friday, October 24, 2008
(click to enlarge)In Loving Memory of a very sweet, cute
and young little girl named Xiao Ting...
1997-2008
I've always loved her, her beautiful smile,
the way she disturbed me and played with me.
I've known her for years, she's my relative.
Though not always meeting up, but i just felt
close to her whenever i see her.. But today,
for the first time... I'm crying upon seeing her,
Touching her forehead.. tearing non stop.
How can such a sweet and young lil girl just
passed on like that?? why is God so cruel as to
take her innocent life away? why must it be her???
There really isnt much to say, cause when i
first saw her today at NUH.. My tears did all the
saying.. I really wished I were the one to die instead.
But no.. God chose to take back the life of those
good people, and let those bad people suffer here.
It's really, really very painful in my heart..
Labels: God is cruel...
(11:50 PM)
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
These few days have been peaceful, but there always
will be a small storm that comes and goes... zzzzz
I'm such a foolish thing... I thought that going her
house to accompany her almost 5 days a week will make
her happy and contented. I thought that after my work,
tired and stuff.. she'll understand what i'd done and
stand by my side supporting me.
The more arguments u win, the fewer friends u have..
This sentence is so true, but not only does it implies
to friendship, it does the same for relationships too.
When u always fight and try hard to win an argument
against ur loved one, u are just simply destroying
the love they have, bit by bit... until one day, it just
disappears.
It is hard to say, but we'll never know what may cause
our hearts to change. Expecting the person we loved to be
of the standard that we wan them to be, is causing them
hurt, and sadness without even knowing it. I myself dont
even always know how to handle these problems, that's why
I'm always facing the same problems now and then.
We all just want our face isnt it. I've been learning to
let go of my pride as a man and been giving in to the person
i loved. But when things happens, her pride is always the
first thing that comes first.. I dont even know what place
am i in.
We always expect the person we loved to do things that we
seemed OK in our way, but do we really even want to do things
that are OK in theirs? For example, I dont like my girl to
start shouting and screaming when she's angry.. But do i do
it too? Everyone has their own ways of venting anger...
Girls usually do it the S&S (shouting and screaming) ways,
which is just the best type of venting that will make things
more worse. When girls screams, the super High and Irritating
pitch goes into ur ear drums, and it sounds like it will spoil
anytime. that's the part i hate most. that's why i always cut
the quarrel halfway, and then forget everything... but that doesnt
work for her. she just remembers every little thing.
We've just had another quarrel, and again.. it's just about a
tiny lil matter, which of course, turns big at the end... just
because ppl insist they are right and we are wrong, everything
starts turning more worse... And they dont realise it too. They
just care that U did wrong, and no matter how big they made the
thing into, it's still Your fault. They never know when to give
in, until the day they lose the person they loved...
It's the same for ur parents.. u dont like their nagging and
stuff, but when the day comes and they dont have the chance to
nag anymore, you'll be missing their nagging, their love..
Always treasure what u loved, cause if u dont, then u dont really love it a lot at all. Hope this gets into YOUR head, and all of u who read my blog.. Dont wait for regret to come.. It'll be more painful than saying sorry at first.
I'm sorry.
Labels: To forgive and forget..
(10:15 PM)
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Do the test below and see whether are u a loyal fan of AH BAO's fan club...
It's Free~! =)
Labels: Bored..
(6:49 PM)
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Just did new mod for my bike few days ago,
which is to attach LED light bulbs under it.
Seems quite nice, but like any other ppl
who do illegal modifications....
We're all just waiting to get caught by TP!..
zzzzzzz
which is to attach LED light bulbs under it.
Seems quite nice, but like any other ppl
who do illegal modifications....
We're all just waiting to get caught by TP!..
zzzzzzz
This week sucks... hope next week will be better.
Tahan Tahan Tahan!!! ORD IN 10 MONTHS!
zzzz still soooooooooo long.......
Any interesting ideas on how to make life
more wonderful? more meaningful??
Instead of the "Movies, dinner and stuffs?"
BORED!!!!
Labels: In God We Trust
(11:24 PM)