Gaara of the sand!

My Boss, your hero..

2009-04-23T11:10:00.004+08:00

My Boss, your hero..
Was watching My Boss My Hero once again in camp,
and as usual.. was soo touched and happy watching this..
Dunno how to express it, but i just felt so much wanting
to be Sakaki.. with the cute lil buch of classmates,
and men who are under him, the Yakuza headman...

What can be more interesting than that?
The background music that plays during the emotional
part, the expressions of those classmates...
Whoever watched it before should know...
and those who didnt, U SHOULD WATCH IT NOW!!!

U wont regret watching it, cause I SAY SO!!
I wan such friends and buddies too.. but dont think
i can ever find such good things in life.
Btw anyone who knows where to get those music
or have those music from the movie, plssss
send it to me! Except the theme song la..
i got it le..
Almost cried while watching it in camp.. zzzzz

Life can never be as beautiful as it is in movies..

COMPLETED!

2009-03-30T22:02:00.004+08:00

Finally, those un needed teeth were
taken and extracted out... but it
hurts like hell after that. zzzzzz

I was in a room, given some kinda gas
to breathe in and the next moment I
woke up, it was 5 hours later... with
1/5 of my teeth gone!!! zzz love and
my mother came to fetch me home
too.. Was given lots of medicine and
bleeding didnt stop there. Had stitches
and stuff.. horrible!!!

Just wasted 1.5k credited into SAF account..

Muahahahahha

10 more hours!

2009-03-29T22:18:00.005+08:00

10 MORE HOURS TO TEETH SURGERY!!!
zzzzzzzzzzzzz

How does it feel? what's the side effect?
what happens after that? feels damn painful to
remove 7 teeth one shot right.. zzzzzz

Have been clubbing these few days, cause my
beloved darlin adam is here in sg, and well..
like he said... he was born in PHUTURE...
after some calculations, I think he had spent
already 10-30k a year in zouk. zzzzzzz
rich ass...

After the movie '12 rounds' with him and ray,
he brought us over to this hotel beside
cineleisure, called Meritus Mandarin...
and guess what.. He bought us a plate of
CHICKEN RICE each for dinner, and priced
$24 per plate excluding gst!!! zzzzzzzzzzz
That's the most expensive plate of chicken rice
i've ate for the past 23 years... zzzzz
你真内行！！！！

Adam again... trying to hide his face..

Adam, when he had sexy long hair..

Though short hair, he's still sexy.. hahaha

See what i mean by sexy?

Thought the person who gave me this was a good friend..

I was Totally wrong....

The $24 Chicken rice...

The new SAF issued Uniform....

Sunset... but not at a romantic place.. haha

Wth U looking at??

Uncle BaO never see b4 ah!

haizzzz

2009-03-21T23:25:00.003+08:00

it's almost midnight, and I spent the whole night
doing rubbish, playing games.... resting...
down with a super bad cold and flu...
But it's all what i deserve isnt it?
ahahaha.

shld go rest le...
see yaa

New SKIN!!!

2009-03-17T00:55:00.003+08:00

This is the skin of a movie that i really loveee...
KOIZORA!!!
U guys should go watch it, on the net....
It's real nice, touching, and SADDDD LA!!!

Though this blogskin is a bit girlish, but
who cares? as long as i like it. HA!
The guy has hair like Final fantasy,
and the girl is from
MY BOSS MY HERO!!! wahahahaha....

Well nothing much to post le...
see how this week ends ba..

Take care guys, and girls!!

Happy Birthday stepphhyyy..!!!
Princess of LCOR!!

........

2009-03-05T18:24:00.010+08:00

Blog bLOG BLOG blog blOG!!!
Havent been blogging for weeks,
and guess it's time to do some!

Watched "Marley and Me" with love
last week, and it was so sad... she cried leh..
I'm still ok cause humans make a bigger impact on me.
hahahah... It's a very sad movie, so i encourage all
of you not to watch it..
"Kung fu chef" is also quite a normal film,
not really worth watching cause not much action
and the storyline kinda bored me.. disappointed!
Then "Pink panther 2" with pals too, and
it was not really what i expected la. Cause since young,
i loved the REAL PINK PANTHER, the cartoon character...
But this movie like got no link with it at all. zzzzz

Celebrated Shi Hui's belated 25th birthday on tuesday,
and took quite a number of pictures too.. requested by
the birthday girl, who like any other young girl, is also...
a photo maniac... zzzzz
Well, at least all of us enjoyed meeting each other
and chatted all the way, it sure is nice meeting since 2005
or 2008... SOO LONGGG!!! zzzzzzzzzzz

Really hope that my life can be more interesting,
Ord soon, and faster get a NORMAL job to support me..
This stinking saf giving us mere $400+ is treating us like
Banglas.... Even banglas earn more than that...
Tell me you're not proud of being a sgprean.... Definitely!

After finding and having friends that come and go,
even comparing some of those fakes that I have now..
E145 is still the best... Maybe long term of fellowshipping
does strengthen our relationships.. Hope there wont
be any more fakers coming my way again.. haizzz

Birthday gift for the birthday girl..

Ling jie, Sis, Shi Hui

Ling Jie, Me, Shi Hui

Fake smile... zzzzz

Just the 4 of us..

Her lil birthday cake...

Ling jie finally opened her eyes!!!

Panickin!

Steadying!

Caught a picture of rainbow outside IMM

Me and Love..

BOOMER!!!

Boomer tryin to come into the picture..

huh?

Desserts at Marina mandarin

Strawberry from.... My home...

lalalalalla

2009-02-19T21:34:00.005+08:00

Rochelle, how are u doing up there?

hahaha.. U must be playing the wii that

someone bought u right? hope u love the

things I've decorated ur tablet with..

Sometimes i still wonder, why can such a God-damned

fever take you away from me?

Ppl have the chance to fight cancer,

fight whatever shit they have..

why not you??

Why cant God just take away the lives of some

ppl who deserves to be dead instead of

you who deserves to live??

Missssssss u soo much...

bless me up there in heaven k?

U know me, u see what i'm gg through now...

So pls help me to go through this...

really really lovee you a lot.

Come talk to me in my dream tonight?

I'll b waiting....

lovessss..

The things behind a smile.. can u feel it?

Dirtiest boots of my life... and it's mine.. zzz

I really am....

(a t shirt bought for me by her)

The OLDEST phone i've found,

and it's the first mobile phone I've used in 1990s.

Helloooo ppl...

Have not been blogging for a long time, because
dunno what to blog also la. zzzzz this time i just
include some pics and videos to entertain u ba..

Lousy videos la.. but nothing better to do de..

Life's the same, but boring because of being in the
army... It's like total waste of another 2 years for me..
Suffering and having financial problems, which i wouldnt
have had if I am working outside.. I really cant wait
to ORD in july this year and start earning some real
bucks for myself to save up soon... haizzzz

Next week will be my final judgement day,
where I will be given my punishment for lending
my bike to my friend... My bike may be taken
away from me, and that sucks totally...
Life really gets worse when it's already bad enough..
Among all my friends, I'm really the lowest of them all..
Please end the world soon God, and stop us all from
suffering any longer...
Unfair, unfair.. and unfair....

2009-02-04T22:10:00.005+08:00

~~HEAVY RAIN!!! ARGHHHHHhhhh~~

BORING...
Dont know what to do, I WAN TO ORD NOW!!
NS is totally a waste of time, with that lil pay they
give us, it's just like giving pocket money to children..
zzzzz 6 MORE MONTHS!!! ENDURE!!

Went to visit Rochelle today after work,
but on the way to the place, HEAVY RAIN!!!
I was like Faster stopped near a bus stop and
waited a the bus stop, But things didnt get better..
ALL THE TRUCKS AND BUSES MOVING BESIDETHE ROAD SPLASHED WATER AT ME! zzzzzzz
Cause of the mini flood, I was still DRENCHED in the end..
haizzz.. so When I reached Rochelle's place, I was
totally WET, WET and WET! Anyway that's not the
main topic.. Missed Rochelle so much.. re-design her
tablet, and chatted a while with her... love her so much..

I dunno who bought those, but there were a set of wii
placed on her tablet, and it's soooooo mini and cute la!
I dont know how they got those sizes, but I took some
Pics to show u ppl... Dammnnn nice..
She's really loved by all... Thank God...

YES!

And We'll be going to catch the Korean perfomance BREAKOUT

at the Esplanade next Week! First time watchign a performance!!!

Sooo excited... hahahaha... Hope it'll be nice, and we'll enjoy...

5 of the lcor gang went out for movie last week..
guess who?

hmmmmm

2009-01-30T00:41:00.003+08:00

Dbl O Night, first time with BAOBAO around!
Tadahhhh...

Sorry to the 2 first-time-i-ever-see-reach-so-early person who I've
asked out for being so late than the meeting time. ~~Sometimes circumstances make us change, make us late..~~ hahahaa
Sorry la k.. next time wont liao! =)

So our group of 4, 2 guys 2 girls... got into dbl O and started ordering
drinks... Elohssa was sooo anxious to get me drunk that she kept asking
me to drink, but ended up she's the one being high... girls....
While Ben and Mich were on the HIGH mode and kept dancing - due to
the effects of ALCOHOL, my love was dancing too, but she was dancing
on her on will, no alcohol, no drugs... Wahaahaha...

And me? My main part is to ensure everyone's safe, so I drank as lil as
I could, and joined them at the dance floor. A number of boys/guys keep
wanting to go near to mich and get fresh with her, Cause BEN didnt want
to dance with her and she was like alone, though we were beside her.. So
I have to keep a lookout for wolves, and show them my leopard claw if things
get nasty.... but nothing happened.. those guys who tried to get near to her,
walked away after i or Ben pulled her to our side.... Phew.. I really like to
avoid having fights in those places as much as possible, though i really like
it.. =p

THE MOST IMPORTANT PART....
I'm not supporting u ppl to go to those places, but once a while is ok.
I asked my friends to go because I know when I'm there, i have the ability
to protect them... Try to cut the habit into like once a month? or once fortnight?
U all are my friends, and I want the best for you guys...
Take care!

Btw, those who wants to bring ah bao along on ur next dbl O trip,

Please 'do not cut the queue... get the application form from my secretary,

and pls fill the form in BLUE INK... *cause i dont really like black ink*...

Thanks for the company, and let's meet up for some fun again soon...

Happy Cny!

2009-01-28T09:23:00.003+08:00

Happy Cny Guys...

Hope you all had fun gathering lots of ang baos, gambling,
eating junk food, meeting friends...
Usually after Cny, those titbits and junk food lovers
will either fall sick or get a sore throat and some coughs...
Because the FOOD IS REALLY TOO SWEET AND HEATY!!
Thanks to MICHELLLLLLEEEEEE for opening her house for
us to gather and have fun, though it was not really THAT fun..
But it's still FUN, so we still have to thank her la. =)

Didnt really know what to blog for now, but maybe soon I'll
have some inspirations to do it... see ya then!

Blurest Look!

2009-01-22T23:43:00.005+08:00

Do u wan to become like peter?
Are u only remembering Him in bad times and not good ones?
Let's all not forget Him, and remember Him only when He's gone...
We should never deny Him, cause He gave his life for us.

I am not the best Christian, but I am still working on it...

Let's all do it together shall we?

So that one day when we all go to heaven,

we'll be able to see one another again....

Hi!

2009-01-19T00:01:00.008+08:00

Happy Birthday Daniel!
we all love u lots... hahaha

Anyway we kinda celebrated our brother dan's birthday today,
hanging out together for the whole day... Sushiing, movies, lan gaming,
ice-creaming, chit chatting... It's just fun going out together
with our group of friends dont u think so?

Though we didnt really do much for him except spending time and
buying some cakes and lunch for him, i think spending time
together with ur friends, making the day an extremely care-free one,
no worries, no trouble on that day we go out... that's the important thing.

I'll let the pictures do the talking, cause i cant type anymore longer
cause it's getting late, and someone will kill me for not sleeping yet!!
ARGHHHHHHHHHH....
WE LOVE U DAN!!!

Anna and the King? noooo

It's Ming Wen & King!

King being cheeky...

King peeing.

Combinition of Ben's glasses and Steph's scarf

They call me Bae Yong Jun..

dunno why also..

the undead...

Smoker!!

BOOMER!!!!! (kidding la)...

zzzzzzzz

2009-01-13T23:07:00.005+08:00

LICENSE EXPECTED TO BE REVOKED TOMORROW!

Haizz... tomorrow is the day, and it came so soon.
I dont know how to face it, I dont know how to handle it.
Going to court to be sentenced again is really not a very
good experience to gain, and I'm sick of it.

But I still have to carry this burden myself.
I just hope someone will make this burden lighter.
.......

rochelle, pls accompany me tml will u?
I really need ur blessings in bulks tomorrow...

missing u lots....

Happy Birthday Ben!

2009-01-10T20:19:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday Ben!!!

His bdae was celebrated at the i think called ParkSuites, the building just
right behind wisma atria, and it's quite a nice place inside. But well,
Ben was dead drunk after cutting his cake... That's because he was given
a ~~HUGE~~ wine glass filled with mixed liquors together, and he drank a lot
of it.

As for the lcor gang, we played cards... and i loveee it.. although i caused
the hands of 2 pitiful girls, Misssselle and stafenie to have a BIT of blue-black.
Muahahhahahha... ~~Sorry la~~, but u know la.. it's not an everyday kinda thing
that I can do such things. so forgive me k? haahha

Went to the Concord at around 1+ 2+ for some lan games, they were
playing left 4 dead, which left some of us, screaming and shouting while
being chased by zombies, in the game... I've played the game with bots,
and it's a bit scary la... but it's a fun shooting game, and teamwork is impt!
That game shop was a bit lousy though... and joan, a girl somehow specially
related to our bdae boy, followed us and was like being left out cause she doesnt
know any games.... ~~so our heroic ming decided to bring her home himself~~..
Lol....

After lan, we went back to the room for somemore games, which is Misselle's Wii..
That is stil the worst life-draining, energy-draining game lor. Played a while then
went to sleep liao.. HELLO! It was like 5.35am Liao lor!! And i didnt had any
RED-BULL like dan did.. Lol.

Overall, we had fun, pity that ben couldnt join us.... But well, he provides good
services doesnt he? Poor bdae boy la.. Enjoy ur liquors at home! God Bless you..

My friends, pls cut down on drinking outside, especially with those people who
just keep asking u to go drink or some unhealthy places..
It's really not worth the money or time.
Learn to choose ur friends wisely.. and not choose those that are there
only when you're having fun...
=)

ooo ya.. forgot to share with u that this was
what my storeman did 2 weeks ago.
hahahaha... we were too free and he decided to
dissect a Lizard!...

This thing is called e gas mask,
and i look damn cool in it right?

Lastly, our bdae boy sleeping soundly after
finishing a Huge glass of mixed liquor..

But he didnt know what his friends did to him
while he was sleeping... =)

WTF

2009-01-07T15:07:00.002+08:00

Just received letter yesterday to ask me to attend court on 14jan for some
traffic offense which will mostly have my class 2b license REVOKED!!
WTFF LAA!!!
haizzzz.. gg

Have to retake my class 2b again, and i may not be able to
take my class 3 for 1 year liao... SIANZZZZZZZZZZZ
Bus, Mrt, Cab..... NOT AGAIN!!!

ARGHHHH!

2009-01-02T08:17:00.001+08:00

COM DOWN COM DOWN!!!
Anyone knows how to fix it??
ZZZZZZZZZZ
Or anyone knows any good technician or shops around the west??
Sms or call me now!!

Happy 2009!

2009-01-01T09:17:00.004+08:00

A New Happy Year For Everyone in 2009!

The first post of the year, should always be a happy one!
Thank God for all He's given u for the past year, and thank him
more for what he'll be giving u this year. Happy Holidays!

Thought today was gonna be boring, ~~cause those 2 didnt wan to meet us again~~...
So love and I went to Queensway to do a bit of shopping, and we bought shoesss!
We had Katong laksa and curry chicken rice there, and we really looked through a lot of shoes.
zzzzz

After being satisfied, we went over to Ikea, where she wants to view some Wardrobes, study tables and bed frames.. We walk over and over, cause we cant find what we want! Damn big! zzzz But after searching for long, we finally found what we need, did some calculation and think it's quite worthwhile. So the next thing we need to do is to get her room's measurements...

Then, we went home cause i wanted to change before we met up with her family to go to Marina Bay to catch some fireworks. It was quite squeezy at the bridge as usual, and i really felt like going down to wait for them.. zzzzz But when the fireworks started to light up at 0000hours, I too, was fascinated by them.. Some big some small fireworks, different kinds different patterns... some looked like rain, and they were all very nice.. I didnt wan to take pictures cause i thought it was just normal fireworks, but in the end i took a few, together with a video of the finale! hahaha
Hope you all like it!

She told me this new year she's not alone and was very happy... well, then i think she'll be happy for a very long time. hahahaha thought i was a bit ~~spoilsport~~ at the bridge. cause i really hate squeezing in crowds and stuff.. LOVE YOU! HA!

Origin of my name..

2008-12-31T15:58:00.002+08:00

The origin of my name..

I will give you rest...

2008-12-30T23:51:00.006+08:00

i love eating babies.... x)

It's been quite a while since i blogged, cause have been quite busy doing some things... and u all will be thinking that's bullshit.. it is.. zzzzz

Well, we all spent a lot of time for the YEP, and though there was no response, I'm sure we all gave our best, and He will do the rest isnt it? Maybe they dont respond now, but when they recall our YEP when time pass, they'll start to believe in Him.
Cause we're planting the seeds in their hearts arent we? Good work guys...
Dont be disheartened, although i was a bit disappointed at first. hahahaha

Anyway Christmas eve was a busy one.. With the YEP going on, and ended at around 2100hrs, I and love had to rush over to my ah yi's place for dinner, cause we agreed to go there to so-called celebrate christmas with them. And after that, we went over to michelle's place also for Bbq and some fun.. Was really really damn full then.. HA! After supper we played some games, taught by sophia/mich... called MUTHU & PIG! As in, it's not a game called MUTHU & PIG, but it's 2 different games la. zzzzzz PIGS CAN LEVEL UP, and MUTHU IS TIRING! hahahhaahha Really hope we could play it again.. ^_^

Finally had a lcor movie gathering again last christmas... It's also been a long time since we youths had gathered together for movie or any outings.. But was quite happy that there was one this christmas. and to make things better, the movie was IP MAN! Damn cool, damn awesome..
damn powerful.. My friends, I recommend 100% that u catch this movie, (If you're the action-packed lover type)... Cause most of my friends, even girls loved it.. err.. I dunno whether is it called like or love, but that's how i describe it.. =)

Have just passed my Basic theory test not long ago, and my final theory will be on 280109. Still long way to go before I can get my class 3 license... Maybe around april or may ba.. Then 1-2 months after that, I'll be getting my class 2a, which means I'll be able to ride a BIGGER bike, and a FASTER one! hhahahah.. Then 1-2 months after that,ORD OH!!!! I'LL finally be partially released from the SAF! (excluding the reservist)... zzzzz 2009 is gonna be a great year for me, and IT WILL BE!

My relationship has been doing well, and i hope it will be always. Let not my heart tremble or get distracted, but only exist for 2 reasons.. Him and her...

Bo wei gong liao...
Anything next time then say la. i wan sleep liao leh!! what time liao.. zzzz
Dont be so interested me that u wan to know all about me la.. U can even spend so much time reading this post?? I know you're interested in me, but sorry... I'm TAKEN!
Muahahahahhaha.... But dont worry, we're still friends! Lol... Actually ah, i dunno who i'm talking to, but if you're reading this... then it's you lo. dumb ass.. =)

Good night, and may be monster under ur bed come to u tonight. ^_^

pic taken by jolene, ming drumming..

nice effect...

Monster inc... zzzzz

CHUN LI!!!

"My Grown-Up Christmas List"

2008-12-19T01:43:00.000+08:00

"Do you remember me
I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you
With childhood fantasies
Well, I'm all grown up now
And still need help somehow
I'm not a child
But my heart still can dream

So here's my lifelong wish
My grown up christmas list
Not for myself
But for a world in need

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
and wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end
This is my grown up christmas list

As children we believed
The grandest sight to see
Was something lovely
Wrapped beneath our tree

Well heaven only knows
That packages and bows
Can never heal
A hurting human soul

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end
This is my grown up christmas list

What is this illusion called the innocence of youth
Maybe only in our blind belief can we ever find the truth
(there'd be)

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end, oh
This is my grown up christmas list

This is my grown up christmas list

Most Touching song... TERESA!!!

2008-12-17T17:16:00.001+08:00

自己的梦
主唱：曾咏霖
作词：乐声
作曲／编曲：张家良

谁没有梦，谁不曾感动
天空是雨是风，还是绚烂彩虹
你们教我学会从容
时间的钟，纷纷钟在跳动
快乐还有伤痛，我知道你都懂
你们的笑容，融化所有泪水的沉重

拥抱每一个梦
总有颗星会为我闪动
困难再大我都会去碰
相信下一秒会变不同

编织每一个梦
总有些风会为我吹送
前路崎岖我不会放松
你们给的沉重一直在心中

拥抱每一个梦
总有颗星会为我闪动
困难再大我都会去碰
相信下一秒会变不同

编织每一个梦
总有些风会为我吹送
前路崎岖我不会放松
你们给的沉重一直在心中

Is Christmas really merry in this world?

2008-12-17T00:36:00.003+08:00

I dunno why, but i always see lots and lots of non christians, those kind of people celebrating christmas.. why the hell are they even doing that?? Do u ever see christians celebrating Vesak day? Deepavali? Hari raya?? NO FUCK WILL IT EVER HAPPEN!

Then why the hell are those people celebrating christmas? And even for the totally wrong reason?? Really feel like punching them straight in the face.. Who the hell says Christmas is a day for family gathering or shopping season or whatever shit. Christmas is a day that we should thank God for sending his Son down for us!!! And that should be the one and only reason!!!

There are even Christians going to celebrate christmas by going drinking, going clubbing, going all those fuck places doing fuck things. Why the hell do they do that?? They've totally no respect
and love for Him, then why the hell do they sing praise and worship to Him?? This kinda people really deserves a few good beatings from me. But well, God will punish them himself.

When going to cg, people give lots of excuses not to turn up... but when meeting their partners or doing something they love, they can have lots of time to spare and go as early as possible. Why the fuck is this happening? People who grow up or stayed in church for a long time actually doesnt realise they're backsliding all these years! U want help to come back to God then ask for it! Nobody will ever reject helping u to get back.. It's Ur choice and ur responsibility.

This Christmas, U can be happy... But are u happy for the correct reason? Are u celebrating it for some other things?? Nobody knows... But you know there's always somone who knows what you're doing every min every sec. ]

If God is willing to grant me a wish, that wish will be for this earth to be destroyed today. Pitiful humans, when will they ever learn.. Must they really start losing things or people that are precious to them so that they will learn? God knows...

Fuck those non christians who love to misuse Christmas, the holy festival.

MURDERING OF THE LAMBS!!

2008-12-09T09:47:00.005+08:00

Just read the newspaper in camp, and remembered
that the people LOVEEEE to kill lambs on 8th dec.
I dunno why is it allowed, but there are hundreds and
thousands of lambs being innocently killed every year.
and this is even being DONE and ALLOWED in singapore!!.

Dont give me the lame excuse of religious things and stuff
that allows them to kill those pitiful lambs. What if i tell
u Being a Cannibalism is a religion and will it be allowed in
singapore?? If there's a religion that offer human as
sacrifice or maybe dogs, horses, PANDAS.... Will it
be allowed?? If it's no, then why do they stupidly
allow lambs to be killed??? And they actually want
racial harmony in singapore... zzzzzzz

This act of allowing lambs to be innocently killed
by those people are just racist isnt it??
Think about it people.. and also whether is sg
a racist country or not... zzzz

Pitiful lambs....
And when we christians kept saying and singing,
"Worthy is the lamb", there they are, the people
slaying and killing it.. zzzzz
Christians are all just about saying and not doing
isnt it? I mean if U really believe that
"Worthy is the lamb", shouldnt u be fighting and
helping the lamb to survive??
zzzzzz

This is bullshit!

Happy Birthday to Weiwei..

2008-12-07T22:57:00.005+08:00

Hi it's Me again!

Well, yesterday was weiwei's birthday and
only his girl, Marie, celebrated with him..
But i think that should be enough for him
though.. hahha.. steak + red and white wine...
HEAVENLY!!! zzzzzzz

But we didnt get a chance to celebrate it for him,
so auntie baozhu cooked a sumptous dinner for us,
and relatives.. we all had over-bloated stomachs,
and still couldnt clear the food. hahaha..
Well, as long as weiwei's happy, everything's ok le.

Today love was still a bit sick so i went to church
alone. There isnt much happening, after church
went for soccer with our people, and dan was
so high about soccer. hahaha... Though we didnt
score much or havent score any against those
uncles, i bet we will achieve it soon!!! Hang on!!
I really love being with my group and hanging
out with them, except for some people who
rather choose to go some inappropriate places
than to hang out with us. Why cant we just
be like last time, gg for movies together...
dinner, having outings... healthy lifestyle isnt it?
But there are always people who just love to
do extraordinary things, and thus go another
direction...

Friends are suppose to help friends!!!! Instead of
asking them to do the right thing, they actually
asked their friends to join them!!! ARE U PEOPLE
BLIND ENOUGH TO FOLLOW SUIT?? WHAT'SWRONG

WITH YOU?? THERE ARE A LOT OF

OTHER KINDS OF FUN AROUND!! BE SMART AND NOT

MIX AROUND WITH WRONG PEOPLE!

If my character is what I was in the past, I'll definitely
smack or slap them to wake them up. But i'm not,
so u people better wake up urselves before u take
ages to realise what you're doing is totally not fruitful!

People are not growing in our church and they're not
even caring about it after realising it.. Some people
have their parents in that church so they must go to
that church because of their freaking parents. Get a life!

You're so old and u still let ur parents pull
u by the nose?? U know u aint doing well spiritually
in Him then U should find out the reason or just move
on to other churches... do u think i really like gg on to
other churches? NO! But after staying in lcor for so
long does it help me at all? NO TOO!!
U dont just get stuck to the church because of ur
parents asking u or forcing u to go. Just explain to
them you're not growing in God in that church..
And if they're stopping u from going, God will punish them.
Because no one can ever stop u from being close to God..
It's all about YOU!!! YOUR OWN BLOODY CHOICE!!!

Guess i've said too much again..
Whether is it helpful or rubbish, decide it urself.
I'm not a freaking counsellor or lawyer, i'm not
good with words. But if you're my close friend, you'll
definitely know how i feel and what i want my friends
to achieve. Good Bye...

My dog is just real cute... zzzzz

Nagging and nagging...

2008-12-07T00:22:00.002+08:00

It's me again.. and this time, there's more nagging
coming.. hahaha But well, you ppl just love to read
what others nag and gossip dont u? ADMIT IT LA!!

Just got back from love's home not long ago, looking after
her for the whole day cause she's sick, with diarrhea,
gastric pain, muscle pain, fever... That's like A LOT OF
DISEASE TOGETHER LA!! zzzzz But she's still hanging
there, with me catering to all her needs.. haha..
Get well soon love! By 0700hours!! I know u cant read this, but
i still want to let everyone know you're in pain, and then
will pray for u. HA!

Christmas is coming, and yet I dont feel any special kind
of happiness or feeling. Not in lcor definitely.. Guess this will
be the last Christmas there.. People whom i know from there
has already moved to other churches, and this time it will
be me.. Why?? Cause this church is just pathetic..
The Traditional way of Preaching, Taking things too seriously,
Some bad company.. Never ever want to try new things.
That's why it's losing more and more people. Nobody can ever
grow there. When I changed from City harvest to Lcor, the
spiritual morale has dropped like almost 70%...
If you're used to be from those rock type of churches, you'll
know that Lcor is really depleting ur morale..
That's why there're getting more and more fakers in church..

I really hate people who post and blog stuff about the world,
those terrorist attacks, economy, whatever shit.. If people
wants to know more about the world, they can just read a kind
of wonderful thing called the 'NEWSPAPER'!!!
I'm 100% sure the newspaper can provide more info than any
other blogger can, and please dont waste ur time reading any
of those in blogs... totally waste of time.
zzzzzz

decide how to live ur life urself...
Dont do anything wrong and blame others in the end..
Even if others are wrong, you are wrong too because you
do the same thing as them instead of helping them.

Here without you...

2008-12-05T08:20:00.003+08:00

After all my encounters with all different sorts of friends, I dont think I'll really take anyone as my buddy or friend so easily now.. Not everyone's worth to be a friend, trust me... I've been through life more than any one of u did.

I have had friends who will turn and stab u just because of money problems..
friends who borrowed money and never returning..
friends who get close to you only when you're rich..
friends who are ur friends only when they are feeling down or lonely..
friends who will just throw u one side when they got a partner..
friends who say they will always help u but well, it's just saying....
friends who gossip about you behind your back, but doesnt dare to say it in front of you..
friends who will just leave u and run away when you're in deep shit.
friends who calls you a friend, but actually thinks you're an idiot.

There's tonnes of different people in this world out here.
People who are self-centered, people who are willing to share..
People who are fucked-up, people who really cares...
You actually thought you had a lot of friends whom you can depend on,
but when things really happens, who's really there for you?

People are never grateful for the help they received when they're
in trouble.. instead, they still prefer those other ppl that can give
them enjoyment, give them fun.. They think that hanging around
with ppl that dont give them much fun is boring.. but that is where
they're wrong. they're still not matured enough to be able to think
for themselves.

You want to be bad, go wrong places, do wrong things... then no one
can help u if u dont wan to change. But what's worse is that you actually
influence and ask people around them to go. that's really the worst kind
of friends.. asking people to do the wrong things with them. but i've
also given up on friends. there's not a single one that i can really count on.
Cause by the simple things that they failed to do for me, i know that they
can never do big things.

well, gg to start work liao..
will continue my 2 cents worth next time...
different topic le ba..
see yaa

wow..

2008-12-04T01:17:00.001+08:00

Completed my blogskin, and had a hard time editing it too.
ahahahaha. well it should be good now ba...
give me ur ratings k!

Rochelle, missing u so much.
when are u gonna come back to me?
It hurts thinking of u everyday....

Lovely Lil Sunday..

2008-12-01T01:03:00.005+08:00

Well, went to my friend, xiao wei's birthday
party last nite at Pasir ris at Costa Sands..
She's still the same size after 2-3 years la..
That's what cute about her ba. hahhaha
Anyway she's a lovely lil girl, althought she's
already 21, she only looked 16 to me. zzzzzz
Was glad to be able to see her again, and
talked some rubbish with her together. Haha..

Love and me slept at 4am in the morning!
and we were like have to attend cg in church
at 9am!! 3 hours plus of sleep is like errr...
Amazing? Well, if there are others who can do
that, why cant i? hahahah.. and we were late
for cg lor.. at least we made it! =)

Friendly version of Ah baO

Who's this? zzzzz

Stupid pang

Stupid girl

By Xiao wei..
(Together always)

and i'm like trying very hard to find my

camp pass, which is missing!!! how to

go back camp tml?? Faster hope i find it tml

morning!!! zzzzz ARGHHHHHHHH

One day more...

2008-11-29T00:12:00.004+08:00

HA! These few days too lazy to blog liao..
That's why i decide to update now in case
my dear readers start abandoning it.. zzzz

Have been promoted to CPL rank, and
therefore, i can see my ORD coming soon.
8 more months!!! FASTER COME!!!

Repainted my room last sat with my love,
but it's not finished yet so there's no picture
of it. Wil upload when it's ready! HAHAHA!
But there's still not much special things toblog about leh.. hmmm...
Maybe I've forgotten about it too le.
Life just continue like it as now for a longtime, and i think it's quite ok for now, as
i'm in ns... maybe it will be better when I ORD and get a job outside ba...

People around me are going astray, but
i cant do anything to stop it.. because they
wont heed my advice anyway, I'm no one
to them. I'm also tired of treating ppl as
brothers or buddies when they're just
so heck care about it. No one knows the
meaning of buddies and brothers now..
all they care is their own lives, and whether
are they happy or not. these ppl sucks.

Had enough of this church, and dont think
i'll stay there after this year.. i think i will
do better not being there.

I dont know why do ppl buy and drive cars
for... Out of 10 cars in sg, 8 of them are stupid
slow drivers, always scared of something
happening... that's why i always have to waste
my brakes on those assholes... get a life dude..
buying luxury cars and bigger ccs cars but only
to go at 100km/h on highways?? u should just
change to a vintage car instead... that's more
suitable for that speed.

Snake in manhole!!!

2008-11-18T23:29:00.004+08:00

I never knew a manhole was THAT dangerous!!

Guess what I found when I went to the
toilet in camp today? A 2 METRE LONG
snake! I dont really know whether is it
poisonous or not, so I didnt really go and
touch it. I just went over to call my friend
and while waiting for the superiors and
the people in charge of this kinda situation
to come, i started disturbing the snake..

I grabbed a wooden pole nearby and poked
it, swinging the pole... making the snake bite
it. Luckily it didnt go for me.. zzzzz

Not long after, the superiors came and
realised how big it was, and told us to stay
back while they handled the situation.
We did as told, and looked at how they
put the snake into the sand bag or whatever
bag that it's called la. zzzzz and they went off
less than 30mins time.

I was still a bit uneasy that such a big snake could
just come out of the small lil manhole in the toilet.
Was wondering what can i do if i was doing my
big business halfway and it came out.. zzzzz
Was damn lucky..

Just for laughs.

2008-11-18T23:27:00.002+08:00

Caught someone on camera peeing
somewhere. hahahaha....
Well, it's all just for fun.

Terrible, horrible day..

2008-11-16T22:46:00.002+08:00

Today was one of my most unlucky day.
I thought today would be fun, with the
basketball game and stuff going on..
Yes, it still is fun, sweat all over, playing
X box with dan and ended being owned
in fifa 07... zzzzzz

But somehow, i still felt weird this whole
day... Firstly is because my bike almost skidded
and drop to the ground when i was riding on
a multi storey carpark, and thank God I was
able to hold on to the bike steadily enough to
pull it back to place.

Secondly, while playing bball with the rest...
the bball just landed right on my nose and
I dont know why.... But again, thank God i
didnt bleed.. I wonder why..

Thirdly... the last and the worst thing that
happened right after I sent my love home.
When i was leaving the place, i accelerated my
bike, and suddenly a cat just dashed over towards
my bike, and my bike just went over it. I felt the
cat under my wheels, but I couldnt stop fast enough.
When i stopped and turned back, it was gone..
I dunno what happened to it, and I think i would
have really skidded or crash if i was at high speed..
At that moment, i really felt like something was
really trying to take my life away, but there was also
someone there who was helping me to keep my life.

Until now, i'm still feeling uneasy by myself...
Please take away this feeling from me.. someone....

soo sweettt...

2008-11-07T23:38:00.004+08:00

I've finally got hold of the small pinkish crytsals
that i wanted to buy for dear Rochelle.. and guess
who got it for me? My love of course..
She was telling me that she went shopping at PS,
and got the crystals for me. and she's not letting me
pay anything, so I take it as it's a gift for Rochelle..
So nice hor.. Thank you! =)

Well, now i got my hands on the crystal, decoration
of the tablet can be done soon.. I hope I'll be able
to do a special and wonderful decoration for her,
so that she'll love it too!
Loving u lots Rochelle!

I'm on my way..

2008-11-06T23:04:00.002+08:00

Eh Rochelle, u just left me so suddenly like that..
leaving me to suffer here in this world... Why are
u so selfish ah... why didnt bring me along? haha
I really miss talking to u, playing around with you.
I dont really like writing letters and then buring it
to let u read it cause it's quite troublesome.
So I'll just blog it here so u can see it anywhere.
hahahah...

If you're not keen on bringing me with u, then
at least bless me ma.. Help me to make my life
better ok? then when I'm successful, I'll repay
u back everything u helped me.. Just let me
hug u one more time and it'll be enough for me.
Please bless me up there in heaven k? I'll
definitely want to see u the first thing when i go
up there too. hahaha..

I feel a bit weird talking to u like this now,
but i really hope you'll be able to read it... if
not u can read my heart also.. cause that's the
place where there are no single lies... I really
miss you... Come and speak with me in my dreams
k? ByeBye...

With Love, Courage and Hope...

2008-11-05T22:40:00.002+08:00

It's been almost 2 weeks since Rochelle left us..
Somehow, i dont really feel the terrible pain
anymore. But As and when, She'll still appear
in my mind suddenly.. I miss her too much...

I'm currently trying to find some things to
design her tablet in Mandai.. U know, those
pinkish crystal thingy that girls paste on their
nails to make it looks nice? anyone can give me
info on where to get it? appreciate it!...

Hmmm... about me and her?
She's currently getting some temp jobs,
earning some cash to keep her alive when
she starts studying... Sooo hard working!!
We've been trying to think real hard what
and where to go to spend our time together,
but just cant think of any... anyone got ideas?
My head is always cracking because of trying
to think where to go.. zzzzz hahahaha...
But anywhere is fine la.. lovee herr so much.
=)

This world sucks..

2008-10-31T18:14:00.000+08:00

There aint nothing much to do,
especially in singapore. I have been
spending the past few months wondering
where to go and what to do to spend my time,
but it always end up to nothing.

That's because singapore sucks, and without
cash, you cant do almost anything for leisure.
Why isnt this world coming to an end yet??
I have really waited a very long time for it.
Someone give me a bottle of sleeping pills now..
please..

My dearest sister...

2008-10-28T23:21:00.000+08:00

You were taken from us so suddenly
This I'll never understand
How I wish to see your face, or touch your little hand

I'll never know the reason why God took you in this way
I can only hope to see you where you are someday

If I could have been there that night,
I'd do all that I could to save you and protect you.
But God had other plans and wanted only you

I know that you are with me, all the time, in fact
But I can't help feeling how desparately I want you back

If you ever want to see me, or reach out in some way
Always remember, Rochelle, I'm just a thought away

The person who was with me..

2008-10-27T22:16:00.000+08:00

I would like to thank my love,
though she's a bit jealous that I
gave all my concern and time that
few days to my beloved Rochelle..
I'm glad she understands at last
and didnt complain.
Thank you love!
=)

But i think she went a bit crazy cause
she started believing that pop corn
can actually be drank.. from a straw somemore.
zzzzz

Goodbye Rochelle..

2008-10-27T21:56:00.000+08:00

I really hate going to mandai.. Although it's partly
because of Army's field camps, the main reason
is because we go there to see our loved ones
for the last time. If i could, i really like to keep
a part of Rochelle's ashes in a small, cute and nice
bottle... Just the way she was when she was around
with us. But i know that's impossible.. We can all only
keep her in our hearts.

It's been 2 days after Rochelle has been cremated.
We didnt get to keep her long enough because there
wasnt a proper wake for her, u know.. like those 3-5
days wake adults that passed away always had..
The adults in my big family decided not to have it
because the mother couldnt take it, and they want
to shorten her pain as soon as possible.

Spend almost the whole day of saturday settling
her journey, sending her off with what we all could,
with all our tearful hearts. That's the only last thing
we can do for her, and i really did all i could.
Rochelle's such a wonderful name, for this beloved
wonderful little girl.. We love you.

Somehow, a reporter managed to get hold of my blog,
and read about my previous post on Rochelle. I
dunno how they got it, but they posted almost
everything i wrote on Saturday's Chinese newspaper.
I was shocked too when i read it, but well... It was
all for our lovely little girl. Except that my name was

wrote wrong.. It's Ah BaO (Leopard). They wrote Ah BaO

as in some sort of jewellry.. zzz Knowing that so many
people has cared and cried so much for her, loving
her all the while.. I believe she can leave in peace now.

Goodbye Rochelle.. we love you.

A cheerful and loving girl named Rochelle..

2008-10-26T00:35:00.000+08:00

Everything was settled today. Burning of
paper money and house, prayers,
looking at her cold lifeless body for the
last time..

Even by just typing this blog, my heart
is already in a unstable state. I've cried
a lot for her yesterday and today, but I
still felt that I've not done enough for her.
I didnt spend time with her more...

Why? Why does such a good girl has to
leave us at such a young age.. Not only
is the government in this stupid world
unfair, even Life and its creator is unfair.
Go and take the lives of all those fucking
criminals and bad people outside...
But Why claim the little life of such a poor
little girl?? I really rather give up my life
for her... my useless life, being a useless
person for 23 years..

Cant type anymore.. Want to know more,
Please read Today's Chinese newspaper,
WAN BAO... Headline, and pg 3.. Thanks.

In Loving Memory...

2008-10-24T23:50:00.000+08:00

(click to enlarge)

In Loving Memory of a very sweet, cute
and young little girl named Xiao Ting...
1997-2008

I've always loved her, her beautiful smile,
the way she disturbed me and played with me.
I've known her for years, she's my relative.
Though not always meeting up, but i just felt
close to her whenever i see her.. But today,
for the first time... I'm crying upon seeing her,
Touching her forehead.. tearing non stop.

How can such a sweet and young lil girl just
passed on like that?? why is God so cruel as to
take her innocent life away? why must it be her???

There really isnt much to say, cause when i
first saw her today at NUH.. My tears did all the
saying.. I really wished I were the one to die instead.
But no.. God chose to take back the life of those
good people, and let those bad people suffer here.

It's really, really very painful in my heart..

well...

2008-10-21T22:15:00.001+08:00

These few days have been peaceful, but there always
will be a small storm that comes and goes... zzzzz
I'm such a foolish thing... I thought that going her
house to accompany her almost 5 days a week will make
her happy and contented. I thought that after my work,
tired and stuff.. she'll understand what i'd done and
stand by my side supporting me.

The more arguments u win, the fewer friends u have..
This sentence is so true, but not only does it implies
to friendship, it does the same for relationships too.
When u always fight and try hard to win an argument
against ur loved one, u are just simply destroying
the love they have, bit by bit... until one day, it just
disappears.

It is hard to say, but we'll never know what may cause
our hearts to change. Expecting the person we loved to be
of the standard that we wan them to be, is causing them
hurt, and sadness without even knowing it. I myself dont
even always know how to handle these problems, that's why
I'm always facing the same problems now and then.
We all just want our face isnt it. I've been learning to
let go of my pride as a man and been giving in to the person
i loved. But when things happens, her pride is always the
first thing that comes first.. I dont even know what place
am i in.

We always expect the person we loved to do things that we
seemed OK in our way, but do we really even want to do things
that are OK in theirs? For example, I dont like my girl to
start shouting and screaming when she's angry.. But do i do
it too? Everyone has their own ways of venting anger...
Girls usually do it the S&S (shouting and screaming) ways,
which is just the best type of venting that will make things
more worse. When girls screams, the super High and Irritating
pitch goes into ur ear drums, and it sounds like it will spoil
anytime. that's the part i hate most. that's why i always cut
the quarrel halfway, and then forget everything... but that doesnt
work for her. she just remembers every little thing.

We've just had another quarrel, and again.. it's just about a
tiny lil matter, which of course, turns big at the end... just
because ppl insist they are right and we are wrong, everything
starts turning more worse... And they dont realise it too. They
just care that U did wrong, and no matter how big they made the
thing into, it's still Your fault. They never know when to give
in, until the day they lose the person they loved...

It's the same for ur parents.. u dont like their nagging and
stuff, but when the day comes and they dont have the chance to
nag anymore, you'll be missing their nagging, their love..

Always treasure what u loved, cause if u dont, then u dont really love it a lot at all. Hope this gets into YOUR head, and all of u who read my blog.. Dont wait for regret to come.. It'll be more painful than saying sorry at first.

I'm sorry.

Come come!!

2008-10-14T18:49:00.000+08:00

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Wow..

2008-10-12T23:24:00.001+08:00

Just did new mod for my bike few days ago,
which is to attach LED light bulbs under it.
Seems quite nice, but like any other ppl
who do illegal modifications....
We're all just waiting to get caught by TP!..
zzzzzzz

This week sucks... hope next week will be better.
Tahan Tahan Tahan!!! ORD IN 10 MONTHS!
zzzz still soooooooooo long.......

Any interesting ideas on how to make life
more wonderful? more meaningful??
Instead of the "Movies, dinner and stuffs?"
BORED!!!!

totally bullshit

2008-09-24T19:29:00.000+08:00

Nobody can replace LC or try to do the things he did.

totally bullshit.

Emotional Problem..

2008-09-14T22:15:00.000+08:00

Suddenly had the urge to change my blog song after hearing
the song from my love's blog. The song she put was the song
that somehow linked her and a person together and that really
made me upset.

When I'm upset, only a few songs will cheer me up, and this song
i've put is really one of the best. The movie that played this song,
"Raise Your Voice - Hilary Duff" actually made me cry on the
ending part, and till now i still feel upset when i recall it.
But well, the lyrics are very true.. Every single sentence, every
single word.. "When I'm standing in the dark i'll still believe,
someone's watching over me..."
That's why i always believed that my beloved grandpa will always
be watching over me.

haizz.. in life, 90% are all about the sad things..

Lantern Festival?

2008-09-14T21:50:00.000+08:00

These few weeks was normal.. Nothing much happened.
Have been going to love's house to accompany her, since
we cant really go out after my work cause next day book
in too... sooooo siannnnn for both of us. zzzzz

This week even jia lat.. Cause the cadets in my wing commissioning,
and we all have to go back camp on SUNDAY! Omg.... zzzzz
Was busy this whole week except for saturday lor.
Felt so tired everyday that i cant go out with my love..
Life in Ocs really sucks. No time for my lovee.... so ke lian hor.

Was blogging halfway when i heard the music from the lanterns
the kids were playing. Suddenly felt so lonely, and so upset..
Why must we all grow up? lose some friends.. gain some new ones..
Recalling back all the things i did when i was a kid with my friends
during this festival, i really felt so lost now.
Where are all my friends? Where are all my happiness?...

Life was meant to be upset. That's how God created it.

Power of love

2008-09-01T23:33:00.001+08:00

Guess my blog's too outdated liao..
So i decided to briefly blog a bit about my life
these past few days lor. =)

I wanna sell my phone!! zzzzzz was trying to
do it on ebay for past few days but was quite
confused lor.. And i really really really wanna
get IPHONE or OMNIA!! Sooo in love with
touch screen phones... but with my financial
status now, i can only afford a VIEWTY..
Super sianzzzz........

Hmmmm, I've went to msia with church and
my love.. and went out.. blah blah blah..
Life's actually going well between me and her,
and i hope nothing will ever come between us.

The 1-day Msia trip was quite ok, except i ate
until like my stomach was gonna explode.
And I Had BASKIN ROBBIN! Cookie dough
and strawberry cheesecake!.. Purposely bought
and ate it and pictured it to show someone who
loves it so much and cant eat it.. MUAHAHAHAH

Anyway, hope i'll be able to go on a cruise trip with
my love soon, to enjoy just with her.. Wanna get
rings for both of us, and so many stuffs... really really
loveeeeeee her. Never doubt that!

Not really addicted to it, but just wan to
Tempt someone.. hahaha

My good buddy... doing business..

Look what she drew on my hand...

Magnum ice cream.. Aunt's hotel

Super Cute Future Pianist!

Super Old-School petrol station..

Just the Two Of us!

THANK YOU EVERYONE!

2008-08-17T00:37:00.001+08:00

This birthday Bbq was quite fun, and tiring.. hahaha
cause have to prepare all the stuff and entertaining
everyone, running here and there, making enough food.
But well, I'm happy when all are happy!... and I got my
love to help me around too.. she's soo nice right. hahaha

Thanks to Auntie baozhu and my Da Gu, who helped
prepare so much food, that can satisfy the hungry
stomachs of everyone.. hahaa... thank everyone for their
attendance, and gifts too..
Received a black christian T-shirt, water bottle, a wrist chain,
and a BOOK!! from my fellow lcor buddies...
and my cousin bought for me a bike accessory too.
a card made and printed out by Pang, and a card from gloria and
geraldine too.

What's best, is that I got my wish to eat a STRAWBERRY SHORTCAKE!
which was bought alone by my love.. damn ex lor.. zzzzz but she insist
on buying.. what to do.. but really like it... THANKS LOVE!

lots and lots of things happen, that i cant really say all out la. tired de leh..
but my father bought a whole big basket of durian, which most of the people
enjoyed. hahha..

(OH!!! AND ALCOHOL DONT INTEREST ME ANYMORE!!! PLEASE DONT BUY THOSE FOR ME!!)
But i still appreciate it. thanks...

really really love u guys..
=)

(Pics are wit sophia... will upload when i get it)

New Bike!

2008-08-13T00:07:00.000+08:00

Hi boys and girls....
It's Me, Uncle Bao once again.
As u all know, my BBQ is just this sat,
which is coming real soon!!
I'm sooo happy, and thanks for all your
attendance..

Hope all of u try to memorize the map
that i sent u with the emails, and any problems
you all encounter on that day , pls call shishi
cause my phone is having some problems.
Thanks..

See you guys this sat!

When the cold wind blow..

2008-08-07T22:47:00.000+08:00

Found a super cute song for my blog
to suit me too! haahhha... soo nice lor.

Anyway these few days having live firing,
and was like sleeping at around 12am and
going to camp by 4.30am. OMG!!!
damn tired, and glad that my love misses
me so much. hahahah...

And just realised that my bbq is just next
week, and I havent even prepare anything
yet. My love wanted to buy me a cake, but
i dunno how many ppl are going lor. But I loveee
Strawberry shortcakes. *Winks*.. haahha
Guess the cake is gonna costs her liao. zzzz
THANK YOU MY LOVE!!!
But that is also gonna be my present? sadded..

And my Bbq food mainly only consist of errr
Chicken wings, hotDoGs, SatAys.. and some stuff
la.. Pls dont expect a lot of food k? cause I only
wanted to have some bbq food.. hahahha..

Those havent confirm de, pls confirm A.S.A.P hor.
dont later not enough food complain again. dotz..

Thanks!

hmmm

2008-08-02T10:18:00.000+08:00

UPDATED LIST!

Well, 14 more days to my Birthday Bbq liao..
So let u guys know who are the confirmed
ppl who are going..

Shi
Ming
Mich
Chris
Wei wei
Marie (Weiwei's eh hem..)
Steph
Oliver
Mr LC
Pang (finally confirmed..zzzz)
DX (Should be ok)
Gloria

So the rest havent replied and i'm still waiting...
faster reply liao k!! if not later not enough food lor.
hahahaha..

love you guys...

Back With New Look Sp!

2008-07-28T23:37:00.000+08:00

Well, it's a bit fast though.. but in this world,
with money.. anything's almost possible ba..

I crashed into my aunt's car last sat, and
her car was big and not hurt.. few scratches..
but for me, same thing..
Rolling on floor with bike again ..
Everything seems so messed up with my bike,
that I really dont know what to do, how to pay
for the repair fees. cause i know it'll be over $600 bucks.
And to make things worse, my SE W950i phone was
spoilt, Lcd cracked and stuff... whole phone gone..
I was totally devastated..

But guess what?
My cousin and his husband volunteered to sponsor me
$200 bucks to buy a new phone, so i got a new SE W910i
right away after the accident.. Soooo Good right..
and seeing me in such a terrible state, my aunt also
volunteered to pay my repair fees for me and i was like..
stunned for a bit.. cause the fees REALLY VERY EX!!!

And I didnt expect to get my bike back today, which is
like so fast.. total repair fees after bargaining was $880!
and my aunt paid full amount for it.. I'm really indebted
to her... since i was small.. cant repay her back...

I'm happy with my new bike, new fairing, new oil tank,
new tyres... and attached some pics for u guys to see..
Enjoy!

Really really wanna thank my ah yi for everything..
i owe her too much.. Maybe U guys will meet her when she
comes for my bdae Bbq too. hahaha.. she's a very nice person..

ARGHHH!!

2008-07-26T22:55:00.001+08:00

Had another bike accident today...
WTF!!!!
Will update details when I can...
zzzzz

boreeed innn cammppp

2008-07-24T15:03:00.000+08:00

Hi Guys!
Decided to do some blogging in camp cause life in camp
these few weeks are reaaaalllll BOOREEDD!! and also
because of those 2 idiots in my tag who requested me
to blog... ( And their blogs is like sooo out-dated..)
still can ask me blog somemore.. zzzzz

EH U 2! (Meaning Ben & Pang..) U 2 better think of
where to go this sunday, better start planning now
and better dotn tell me sunday u dun wan go out..
I'll kill u ah...

Was reading the newspapers this morning and read about
the conflict between bloggers Dawn Yang and XiaXue..
Didnt really know who Dawn Yang was, but when i Saw
her pic in the papers, she's like an ANGEL... Omg..
To think that Ppl can compare her with Xiaxue..
what the hell?? i mean.. Dawn's 100% prettier and
looks more class than that stupid Xiaxue lor..
Wonder how singaporeans really think.. zzzzz

Anyway these few days have been doing nothing much
besides going her house for dinner.. But dunno why always
got lots of food to eat, ice creams, stuffs.. Gonna get more fat
if i keep going there.. DIEEEEE...
But well, the impt thing is we're still happily together isnt it?
hahahha..

Birthday's around the corner in August, and I still dunno
how many ppl are going cause Nobody replied my emails
yet.. (Awwwww...) Think I'm not really that popular to
them ba. Just wanted a small bbq session cause i REALLY
REALLY love bbq food... the chicken wings.... Yum Yum...
So If u happen to read this post, pls confirm with me asap
whether are u going or not k? if not later not enough food..
zzzzz

Went Chevrons last nite with someone.. Initially wanted to
go to the gym there, but there was quite a lot of ppl there so
i didnt wan to go gym.. Then Saw the swimming pool quite
empty de, so we decided to go to IMM to buy some swimwear,
was able to find some normal ones, instead of the ones that
costs $60 over a piece for a girl's swimsuit.
After buying, we happily went over back to Chevrons, and
swim swim till around 8.40pm. There were only like 4 person
including us.. soooo cool..
And our dinner back home was Spaghetti, specially cooked by
her sister. Taste not bad too. hahaha..

Hancock... again.

2008-07-14T23:23:00.000+08:00

Today wasnt feeling a bit well in the morning,
so left halfway through church and went home.
After that received a sms from her, blah blah blah..
and then said ben and pang wanted to watch HANCOCK
and so, we joined them to watch the movie again.
It's still very funny though..

Hmmm.. after movie we went to orchard road for a walk,
lucky plaza.. takashimaya.. and finally went back to PS
for Ajisen Ramen!...
the 3 of them couldnt finish their food and ala carte, so
i SLOWLY finished most of the ala carte for them.. FATT!!

After dinner, we were wondering where to go, west coast
park, esplanade and stuff... but finally they came to a
decision... SENTOSA!!! omg... that's like so boring when
I first heard that.. nothing to do lor..
So we went there for the show called "SONGS OF THE SEA"...
A 20min show that cost $8 bucks.. but well, it's quite
interesting anyway.. u ppl should go check it out..
fireworks and stuff de..

Did i forgot to mention that Ben and I kept disturbing Pang
all these time? and someone's really unhappy with me doing
that.. zzzz jealous... but that's good.. she still loves me.. =)

After that we still decided not to go home yet, so I suggested
going to holland V for a drink, but I'll have to park my bike
back home first unless I wanted to get Booked for Drink driving..
zzzzz... Didnt really spend a lot of time at the BREKO cafe, but
we still had fun chatting.. friends are really the important thing
in our lives isnt it? hahahaha...

Looking forward to our next EXCITING trip!, Pang and Ben...
together with me and her.. Let's make most of our sundays as
interesting as we can, exploring whole singapore! hahahaha...
What a bunch of big idiot... ( excluding BaoBao..)

(All pictures are taken by pang, not uploaded yet cause she's a slow poke)...

Thanks!

Lonely Hellboy....

2008-07-12T00:23:00.000+08:00

This is a very nice movie,

with my rating 8/10..

and it's sooo long that I had

to go toilet halfway.. zzzzz

watched it today, alone..

Today's the very first day that I've ever

watched a movie alone for my whole life..

Why?

Cause we quarrelled again, and i'm so tired of it..

Cant even watch a movie i liked so much with

the person I loved so much..

I really cant understand why must things always

be so complicated, and never easy...

She just cant forget things and make things better..

Small arguments, she have to evolve it to a big one..

why are girls always like that??

Then just pushed the blame on us everytime..

Anyway guess today's the end of both of us,

cause that's what i felt her saying too..

And i guess there're a lot of ppl who

are happy with this ending, especially

those in church..

Guess everything i did was all for nothing.

She cant feel anything, she wont feel anything.

HanCock!

2008-07-04T07:43:00.000+08:00

Anyway just watched Hancock last nite with someone special,
and it's really a very funny movie.. cause that person laugh
and laugh and laugh till mad. But I felt happy seeing her
laughing so freely, as if she'd forgotten all the problems she have..
That's the power of laughter isnt it? haha..

Busybodies or Friends?

2008-07-04T00:57:00.000+08:00

Recently because of the issue between me and her
has caused a lot of commotion among the "KPOS" again..
They're like always there, forever there whenever there're
things to poke their noses into, and never there when u needed
them most.. this is just how FRIENDS really behave in this
realistic world.. hahaha...

None of you got any right to bad mouth her or me, cause u ppl
aint gt any guts or sense of integrity to own up what you've said..
so why bother to comment when u are such an asshole yourself?

To the person named "Me to "Name": ,
I'm really glad u spoke for me, gave advices and stuff.. But i'll
really appreciate it if u let me know who u are too. Cause
I dont want to blame wrong ppl for wrong things..
I have lil friends, less than 5 in church.. so i totally agree when u
say "don't try to talk like a friend when you aren't even one to the owner of this blog."

To the fella named "To Me",
I'm not sure whether are u trying to get shi away from me, or
just dont want us to be together.. But what u said is reasonable,
so, nothing against u... yet...

To my love..
I never thought of u using me because of my bike, but i did
thought of not being able to meet u always if i didnt have this bike..
But I'm still happy now, even if u take me just as a company...
I'm happy just by seeing you...
I've told u and said to u all the rest that need to be said...
The decision is still yours.. All i can say is, I wont let u down twice..

Well, the rest is still not finished..
there'll still be assholes tagging in the dark,
Ppl Kpoing our business...
Never ending story...

But for now, i'm still happily going out with her and that's
enough... Until she makes her decision, i'll wait and wait..
Cause she waited for me too..
Everything is handed up to Him..

Doubted?

2008-06-28T10:13:00.001+08:00

Anyway, if any of u ppl do not think that what
I've blogged all these while are real, that I've lied
bout going out with her, u can always ask us...

Coz if u really know me well, U know i'm not the
type of guy who will not want to write fake stuffs
about me just to show you ppl i'm happy..
I dont have to do that..

If she really denies going out with me, then
tell me.. I'll go talk to her with you...

Field Camp!!!

2008-06-27T01:15:00.000+08:00

This week sure is a tiring one... 5days 4night field camp..
What's worse? I had a truckload full of stores, signal sets
and rifles to clear from the site.. Ended up being super tired,
even when i'm blogging now.. But just decided to blog a bit ba..

And i'm SUPER happy tomorrow,
cause i'll be bringing the person of my life to the new EHUB
at pasir ris, which is like so the far lor.... wonder how much
petrol will it cost me. zzzz but no amount of money used on
this special person is wasted... it's all worth it! and i'm gonna
do more special things for her.. like how the person who tagged
suggested...

That's all!!
Going down soon..
BYEBYE!
NIGHT NIGHT!!

God damn busybodies..

2008-06-26T11:48:00.000+08:00

I LOVE HER,
I STILL LOVE HER,
I'LL ALWAYS LOVE HER...

GOD DAMN BUSYBODIES...
CANT U SEE THAT BY ASKING HER
BOUT U AND ME, YOU'RE MAKING HER
UPSET???? CALL URSELF FRIENDS???

Happy birthday!

2008-06-25T23:12:00.000+08:00

Today's Uncle Alan's birthday, and her mom invited me
to her house for dinner.. steamboat + bbq! didnt expect to be
that full too.. but wasnt that happy cause she kept saying i'm fat..
what the hell lor..

Before reaching her house, i brought her over to IMM to buy a gift
for Uncle, and she ended up buying a watch from titus.. Damn ex..
But well, it's for her dad anyway.. so it's worth it..

Really really love her and her presence...
Hope that it'll be like that forever, with her and me together.
But does dreams ever come true?
Not for me yet..

Good night my love..

friends again..

2008-06-25T00:31:00.000+08:00

It's really very painful these few weeks..
Trying to do everything i can, while she's trying
to do everything to ruin it..
Because of her I've stop contacting most of my
friends.. Because of her I've not even have 10 friends
altogether now.. and she's just simply taking it so easily.

No matter what happens I'm always the last one on
her mind.. Her GOOD and CARING friends will always
be one of the top, and she feels so good about that.
She really think that those ppl are really so caring bout
her.. Let it be.. One day those ppl will disappoint her
like how they disappoint me.

I really need alcohol back in my life.. cuts, all sorts of
stuff that will numb this huge amount of pain she's
inflicting on me unknowingly..
Until now.. i'm still wondering.. Why cant I be like the
real Ah Bao totally, no feeling for love or whatsoever..
Why did God even create love in this world..
Why did He say such great things about love, only to
make me suffer so much by the word love...
WHAT IS HIS MOTIVE FOR PLAYING ME???
WHY!!!!!!!

Haizz...

2008-06-23T22:21:00.000+08:00

Nowadays I really felt like I have to meet her always like that..
But sometimes is because she wanted me to do some things.
Like today i went to her workplace again to fetch her to IMM,
cause her mp3 player, the one the means a lot to her because
it was given by someone special to her, was spoilt.. so I just brought
her to IMM to choose a new one, which didnt satisfy her...
(Reason Cannot be explained here...)

I have a lot of wishes and favour from God..
Cause I really, really will do anything to have her back,
and that is all that matters in my life now..
I am willing to give my life up just to hear her saying
I love you..
But everything just seems so impossible..
And I'm just trying very hard not to face the fact.

why....

ZOHAN!!

2008-06-21T22:06:00.000+08:00

Watched Zohan with her today at cine...
and It's nice, and very pervertic... haha..
Anyway i'm not allowed to explain the details,
cause she dont wan some busybodies to keep
asking her bout me and her..
Some ppl just cant mind their own God damn
business.. wonder why..

Nvm... I'll keep on tolerating..
but there's no such thing as a forever tolerance..
Limit will always break one day...

how she used to be...

2008-06-19T21:43:00.000+08:00

Now, everyday, I'll think of how we used to be before..
But that's useless cause It'll never happen again.
A mistake of mine, has made her cry..
All i have now are jsut memories of her,
filling up my mind everyday.. every second...
But then, they're just memories..

-------------------------------------------
when she's quiet
millions of tings are running in her mind

when she's is not arguiing
she is tinking deeply

when she looks at u wiif eyes full of qns
she's wondering how long u will b arnd

when she ans ' im fine ' after a few seconds
she is not at all fine

when she stares at u
she is lockiing ur face iin her heart

when she lays on ur chest
she is wiishiing for u to be hers FOREVER

when she calls u everyday
she is seekiing for ur attention

when she sms's u everyday
she iis miissiing u

when she says I LOVE YOU
she truly means it

when she says tat she cant live wif out you
she has made up her mind tat u are her FUTURE

haiz...

2008-06-19T14:24:00.001+08:00

Some people are just hopeless...
But God will know what they're doing..

Anyway, I'm real happy that I'm able to give her a ride
for these 2 days... Firstly from her workplace to Holland V
to take a photo, and then to SIM to submit her application.
Then sent her to west mall to meet her mom..
The feeling of her holding on to my shoulders is just so nice..
As if the person is depending on u, and relying on you..
But i know it wont last long..
I'm just living on short term happiness. Cant seem to get long
term happiness anymore cause she dont trust me at all..
Just hope everything will turn out well soon..
without any "obstacles" that is..

haizzz..

haizzz.

2008-06-10T23:27:00.001+08:00

The love of my life is flying off to bangkok tomorrow..
with those so good friends in church... It's a good thing
i separated myself from some of them, cause i know
no matter how long it takes, they'll still disappoint me
one day.. so might as well make everything short..
they dont need me anyway..

Spend her last day in sg before flying off tml with her,
which was like painting her house for the whole
afternoon...want this want that.. blah blah...
But everything's ok for me, as long as She's beside me.
Just that she's still attitude towards me... Zzzz =.=...

Well, because of my bike, I'm able to reach her hse
in just less than 10 mins, compared to the buses
i used to take last time.. it's so more convenient now.
Muahahaha.. can pop up at her house anytime suddenly
liao!!!

Honda Sp!!

2008-06-09T22:44:00.000+08:00

This is my new bike, I'm so contented with the paintwork,
outlook, engine.. stuffs... But guess what?
Just on the 4th day i got my bike, i skidded on the cte tunnel
on sat at 4+ am.. Super sad now.. Outlook is actually 9/10..
now it's 5/10.. ARGHHHH!!!

wahhahaha

2008-06-04T19:49:00.000+08:00

Changed my mind bout the all white sp again cause paper work too troublesome in that shop, so now... I've gotten another sp, which is blue and white!! new paintwork, and it's cool!! Muahahahhaha.... Finally can have my own transport le, and guess dont have to take bus and mrt for some time le.. totally sick of those...
=)

Wowww!!

2008-06-03T19:39:00.000+08:00

Finally decided to buy that bike from a 19year old...
His bike's quite plain looking, but it's quite a good one.
Tried and tested before.. hahaha..
Sooo anxious to get that bike asap.. CLAPS!!!!

can get a load of my mind le.. phew...

Finally..

2008-06-02T20:30:00.000+08:00

Alas..
I can finally smell my bike coming real soon...

this feeling is just so.... errr dunno how to describe..

maybe the feeling of mothers having a baby?

hahahah...

...

2008-06-01T19:42:00.001+08:00

cant stand those ppl who hide things from u,
and when u find out that they are hiding things
from u, they still act like they're totally not wrong..
and can talk about it so loudly...

Guess i was right.. they are a selfish bunch too.

Buddies are for life, but not all of them.

Bikes!!!

2008-05-25T16:42:00.000+08:00

As u all know, I'm already finishing my bike
lessons soon, and i'll be going for test this
2nd June... Hope I will pass!!!!
Really wanna get a bike ASAP LA!!!

Anyway,
I've browsed through the gallery of
ppl selling their bikes, and I managed to
copy some of the pictures of the bikes
that I'm interested in...
Model is Honda SP 150!
Help me to vote which one better k?

2
3
4
5
6
7
8
(Big thank you to the owners for pictures...)

VOTE FOR THE BIKES U THINK ARE COOLEST!
*whether do u like bikes or not, you still have the
ability to tell which one nicer right?? zzzzzz

it's lcor again..

2008-05-21T09:53:00.001+08:00

Damn u ppl in lcor..
U know very well what u did..
what u hid from me..
I'll make u ppl pay some day..

Disappointed..

2008-05-20T22:01:00.000+08:00

Post deleted...

Have a nice day..

haizz..

2008-05-18T22:56:00.000+08:00

now i realise...
nothing i do, can make things better
Love was the cause of everything,
whether good or bad. But no one knows,
all they see and feel is that everything
i do is just wrong. I thought they were
friends who understand but they seems
to be outsiders, judging by actions
and outer surface... they dont even care
how u feel inside.

nothing is really going well for me
this whole life.. even people younger than
me are having jobs, girlfriends, cars....
They have such a fulfilling life while I
have totally wasted 23 years old my life,
Especially now, when the one that made the
biggest impact in my life is the one that's
making my life worst...

Everyday, u'll hear me saying of dying dying..
I really want to die, because there aint no
more meaning in life.. Ppl around me have
good friends, partners, spouses... and are
either dip or deg holders, if they cant study
here they simply go overseas... it's just like
so simple for them to do it.
Me? I cant even go overseas for a trip if i
want to.. let alone going there for few years.
Just my luck to be born in this family, this
pathetic world.

I really really still feel like dying..
It seems to be the goal of my life everyday..
And though I cant really kill myself, but there
are always other ways. that's why I'm getting
a bike when i can. Ppl always say ride bike
for what.. die faster ah.. well, it's real.
If getting a bike can die faster, why not?
I'll speed all the way and dont check for on-
coming cars... that's easy isnt it? hahaha...

and when i'm dead, i seriously dont want
any fake friends coming to my wake..
If You're not interested in being my friend
when i'm alive, then all the more u can fuck
off when i'm dead. Dont act like u're such
a good friend or whatsoever... I'll definitely
write down a list of names of my fake friends
to my cousin and ask him to make sure nobody
in the list comes.

Guess i'm just like the real ah bao..
who dont have any trust worthy friends..

He died 4 You & 4 Me...

2008-05-13T23:30:00.000+08:00

I still think this video is the most touching one...
So that's why I'm putting it back!
Watch, and reflect....

I'm really grateful to all these flash video makers,
for they are doing the work they have been given..
that is to spread the gospels, and they have done it
with all these flash... great job!

Power of Love...

2008-05-12T22:50:00.001+08:00

Yesterday just bought a t-shirt online
from the website which I took the flash
movie from..

I think it's kinda meaningful and though
it's a bit plain, it still is a wonderful t-shirt.
Hope I ordered the correct size.. zzzzz

Christ..

2008-05-12T00:10:00.001+08:00

Nothing much to blog recently,
except for how bad lcor has became..
but dont wish to talk bout it.

managed to find some flash projects
on Christ's love... and would like
to share with everyone of you.
Though it's just a few simple cartoons,
it's really very simple and touching..

On this current flash I'm showing u,
The song, together with the animations..
really can touch u deep in ur heart.
It has touched mine, and so it will touch
yours...

VIDEO DELETED...
because I posted a new one..
hahaha

Please leave ur comments after watching it... thanks

Memories of nobody...

2008-05-06T14:21:00.000+08:00

She can really live without me
but cant live without that fella..
hahaha...

the way of love..

2008-05-01T04:12:00.000+08:00

was watching a korean movie introduced by my dearest cousin,
and after watching it... I realise how simple it is to love, but how hard
or complicated it is to maintain it through a lifetime.

"The man who doesnt wish the girl he loved to have happiness, is the worst type of man"..
quoted by the actor in the movie.

Guess loving someone too deeply can really turn things to hatred..
but then, the root of all problems.. is because of the word LOVE...
trying to live without it, and i'll try my best to do it..

Heaven...

2008-04-29T20:37:00.000+08:00

At first I was afraid but, I like the way you look at me..

I like the way you held my hand

I like the way you pulled me close

I like the way you stroke my back

I like the tingling sensations down my spine....

I like it when you kiss my forehead

I like it when you kiss my cheek

I like it when you kiss my lips

I like it better when you kiss my neck..

I love running my fingers on your chest

I love touching your stubby chin

I love stroking you too...

Kiss me here and I'll touch you there...

I love it when you ease my mind

I love it when you call me baby

I love waking you up in the middle of the night

I love it when you grab me.. everywhere..

I love your weight on me

I love being on top

I love being by your side

I love having you...

Can I have you every morning, afternoon and night?

Nothing beats your gentleness

Nothing beats you holding my bag when I'm drunk (and I know you hate it)

Nothing beats wiping away my tears

Nothing beats having you cook for me

Nothing beats spending time with you

Nothing beats waking up next to you

Nothing beats having you in my heart...

"Why me?" You asked.

"I dunno." I answered.

Actually, I remembered telling you, "Because my heart said so.."

If only what we can see and feel is real

Heaven must be an illusion

If heaven is a place on earth

I found my little piece of Heaven

wrong again..

2008-04-21T13:42:00.001+08:00

Love can make ppl kill.
It can drive ppl crazy..
It can hurts so so much..
It's considered one of the
worst destruction of this world..

But overall, it is because of love..
that He died for us.. a simple word
called love..
Why cant I demonstrate His love
out... Why am I always doing things
wrong when I actually wanted it
to be good...

why isnt there anybody to guide me..

tekong...

2008-04-20T23:41:00.000+08:00

Bye ppl..
Will be at tekong from this tue till sat.
and it's gonna be another super boring
week again there.

I thought I would feel better letting
some things go.. but it's not that way.
I'm feeling so disappointed that I can
actually lose to one asshole, and can
do nothing bout it cause she likes
talking and being with him more than
me. I seriously wan to let him off but
I cant.. it seems so impossible to do it.

I kept having this feeling that once
I have settled him, then will I finally
be able to rest in peace... Hope that
I can achieved my only One goal in life
now.. and let me finish it asap..
I have suffered mentally for a very long
time.. and it's time to end it soon.

fuck..

2008-04-20T23:04:00.001+08:00

still cant accept the fact that
that asshole can enter her blog
while i cant.. fuck it...
He'll still be dead one day.

enough is enough..

2008-04-20T16:23:00.001+08:00

I had enough of being stopped
to read that person's blog while
ppl can just freely come and read
mine and comment bout it.

I'm locking the blog tonight.

church?

2008-04-20T14:58:00.000+08:00

today when i first stepped into the sanctuary,
i realised that around half of them arent my
friends... guess i really have that little friends.

maybe lcor isnt really suitable for me
anymore..

it is finished...

2008-04-19T08:13:00.000+08:00

Didnt expect what has happened to happen.
Last nite her family and Pst lee came over
to my house, and I had a talk with Pst lee..
It's just so sad to lose a Pst like him, and we
cant even do anything to help him.. useless
arent we?

He told me, Let go of what U're struggling to
have now, and u will have a even bigger blessing.
But what he didnt know was that I dont want
any other blessing.. All i simply want is just her.
And wanting that to happen seems like wanting
the whole world.

I dont want anything else besides her.. only her..
But when the feeling is gone, it is gone.. nothing
can ever bring it back. Why does humans have
to be that way.. Why did God let them be this way??
Can He take away all the unnecessary things in
our minds and just let there be love in this world?

I'm Ah Bao, aka Gaara.. (The lonely and unloved)..

Fucked up saturday

2008-04-18T22:28:00.000+08:00

Anyway tomorrow's another reason
for why I'm feeling so fucked up now.
It's SATURDAY And I have to Go
outfield for the whole day till nite!
WHAT THE FUCK!
MAY GOD FUCK LEE KUAN YEW,
LEE HSIEN LONG,
ALL POLICE OFFICERS,
ALL ARMY OFFICERS,
FUCK THIS COUNTY AND
IT'S STUPID LAWS THAT GOT NOTHING
TO DO WITH GOD...

OSAMA OR MAS SELAMAT, PLEASE
FASTER COME AND GIVE THIS PATHETIC
COUNTRY SOME OF UR BEAUTIFUL
BOMBINGS NOW!!! THIS COUNTRY'S
REAL PATHETIC AND IT NEEDS TO WAKE
UP.. BOMB THE WHOLE COUNTRY AND
LET EVERYONE DIE..

fuck up..

2008-04-18T22:16:00.000+08:00

Anyone knows why my song only
play for so short? cause i dont have
such close friends like someone who
keep telling him to change song or
saying him nice song whatever bullshit.
Wtf is wrong with imeem?
WHY IS EVERYTHING GOING WRONG??
FUCK!

Recently has been very pissed off,
and get angry very easily by lil things..
like when using com and suddenly the
program lags a bit, i'll feel like hitting
something, wanting to destroy the com..
I've also been hoping to kill all the
officers in my camp, those trying to make
my life hard, trying to ruin it..

The moment someone says HER name
in front of me, like what my mother did,
i'll feel super angry too, and i want to
destroy her too... but she's still my mother
so i didnt do anything, just walked over to my
door and locked it..

Life's so FRUSTATING!!!
Why is He so unfair?
Why are some ppl born rich and some poor?
Why are some normal and some handicapped?
Why are some happy and some sad??
WHY IS HE SO FUCKING UNFAIR???
WHY THE FUCK ARE WE CREATED JUST
TO SUFFER ALL THESE RUBBISH?

Once wrong, always wrong..

2008-04-17T18:23:00.001+08:00

I know I've been doing the wrong things
all these while, but what else can I do?
I mean, even if i start doing good things,
the result will still be the same...
I've been doing wrong things since I was
a kid, and all those painful memories
really hurt a lot when I'm reminded of
them.. But it's pain and bad experience
that makes a Person mentally strong, never
give up even when making wrong decisions..

All the bad things I've done and received
till now has taught me never to trust anyone
even friends, for no one, not even a person
that I considered my best friend.. can do a
simple thing for me. They will just keep
rejecting when I need help, because they are
afraid of the consequences, of whether will
what I am doing, affect them too.. Selfish isnt it?

Well, i think a lot of ppl would want me
to leave church now cause I've been giving
problems, and they want to help that person.
It's ok.. they have the right to choose who
they take as friends too. I will go, dont worry.
I will slowly disappear, and then this church
will be happy again, free from this trouble maker.

So sweet..

2008-04-17T16:17:00.001+08:00

All these precious moments
With you by my side
Must be a gift from heaven
That's holding me all night

I don't know how I found you
I'm thankful that I have
Now that I have a love so true
To hold, to keep, to share

In my heart, I can no longer hold inside
All of the love I used to hide
I'll always be with you untill the very end
In this world, there is no place I'd rather be
You are my life, my soul, my girl
And through it all
I know that you've come to see that
You're the one till the end

All my friend around me
Say you'd be gone too soon
Baby, I'm gonna make them see
We've found our way back home

In my heart, I can no longer hold inside
All of the love I used to hide
I'll always be with you until the very end
In this world, there is no place I'd rather be
You are my life, my soul, my girl
And through it all I know that you've come to see that
You're the one till the end
We'll always be till the end

Confidential

2008-04-16T20:54:00.000+08:00

I'll be locking my blog on 1st May,
cause nobody whom i dont trust
will then be able to read what I posted,
and there wont be so many unnecessary problems.
Really had enough of it.. Life's just that sad isnt it?

Why 1st may? Maybe let my True friends, or
those wanting to know more bout my life be more
sincere, instead of just taking my blog for granted
ba.. Just that simple..

Yawnz...

2008-04-16T20:48:00.000+08:00

Hmmm.. What i did today?
Well, while waiting for bus outside
camp, saw this large Centipede moving
along the path, and I stomp it to death.
Hate centipedes to the core Man!!!

The 105 i took home was quite amazing..
It had a big tv, and ALL the seats were
sofa-like... Means not like the usual hard
cusion lo.. Even buses are getting more and
more comfortable huh.. hahaha

I'll be going to TEKONG for outfield again
next tue-sat (SIANZ!!!) and I really hate it..
Cant really live without my com for a day.

Finish talking bout my boring life,
and if u want to know anything else..
Just ask me in msn! Tata..

The smell of bike..

2008-04-14T23:59:00.000+08:00

This afternoon, evening, and night, there was a lot
of different numbers calling my phone.. even to my
house.. zzzzz Well, I dont like answering calls from
unknown ppl, and I only answer calls when I feel
like it.. so what did i do? I gladly diverted them to
my very friendly voicemail, which I've recorded
a greeting for them. Hope they enjoyed it.
Did any asshole gave my number out to public
to disturb me? I dont know, and I dont care..
They're only wasting their own time. hahaha

Just passed my Practical 8.01, last assessment
today... was sooo happy and relieved, cause My TP
test is on 5th may so I have to pass this 8.01 before
21st.. Luckily I did tonight, because I prayed? should
be ba..

Nowdays dont really have any pics to upload cos
i'm using Sony Ericsson w950i, which is a non
camera phone.. so jia lat lor army.. zzzz

But my life still sucks la..
Nothing's ever improving, but most of the
things are turning bad.. or have stayed bad
all these months. It's really driving me to my
grave, and wished I will be dead soon. TOo
much for me to handle..

God : In every terms, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.

Uncle BaO..

2008-04-12T17:35:00.000+08:00

After several months of hard work and endurance,
Er jie's effort finally paid off.. What is it?
Her First baby girl was born on April 11th!!
The name's Grace, and maybe the chinese name
will be En Ci (Dunno the meaning in english.. Merciful?)
But anyway it sounded nice, and was given by Da jie...

She gave birth at Mt Alvernia Hospital, a catholic
hospital and the nurses there were quite friendly,
all of them were aunties, so dont think so much.. zzz
Not sure whether is the reason because that She's
staying in a 1-person suite room or not....

The baby's cute and fragile, so i didnt carry it yet..
But it's quite happy to see a new born coming to
this world isnt it? Except that She'll grow up to
face the cruel world herself..
Anyway she got lots of visitors and even the suite
room is not big enough to accomodate everyone.
hahahaha

After seeing the new family so happy,
suddenly felt like having one too.. but it seems
impossible. haha..

With faith...

2008-04-10T22:57:00.001+08:00

I've changed my thinking...
Oh yes i did.

I wont say things bout her anymore,
cause she has the freedom to do whatever
she wants..
The only thing i wanna do now is to get
rid of that boy, cos he's a pain in my ass..
Hope God will deliver him into my hands..
=)

Green Heart

2008-04-09T23:08:00.000+08:00

A person with a Green Heart is a person capable of indulging in self assertion. Such people are usually the envious type. They make aggressive lovers and normally enjoy rash driving. They are possessive, yet positive and a wee bit self centred.

hahaha.. so true huh..
I still waiting for the rash driving part though.
I'm possessive, but negative,
and only a lil bit self centred..

Guess that's better than ppl who only
cares for themselves?
Hope so...